A Vote of Confidence - St. Augustine Photographer
"Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be frightened, and do not be dismayed, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go.” -Joshua 1:9
Starting a photography business isn't easy. I'm sure most who have a successful business will tell you it isn't. It's a big risk. What if people don't like my photos? What if I mess up a shoot? What if I don't live up to others expectations? What if I fail? What if my business never goes anywhere? Why am I even starting a business if I don't even believe in myself? These are just some of the questions that run through my head on a daily basis.
I went to see a friend from church, Tom, because he was going to sell me some of his lenses. Tom is great, he owns his own printing business for photographers, painters, etc, and he's a photographer. While I was there shooting the breeze, one of the very prominent local photographers comes in to pick up some of his pictures. I sorta clammed up not really knowing what to say or how to act. I felt so awkward because he has so much talent and has so many years of experience and I felt as if my images were rubbish. Tom introduced me and said I was looking to start my own photography business. He looked at me and asked how things were going, I mentioned that I've had a job or two but nothing of consequence and I was really struggling with asserting myself. He asked why and I rattled off a list of reasons. Fear being the root of all of them. He stared me down and said, "Don't ever say those things again." I was kind of taken aback and he continued. "You are talented, smart, personable and a professional. That is why people will pay for your images. So I don't ever want you to say those things again. If you doubt yourself, others will doubt you too."
He literally slapped me with reality. So with that said, I am going to not doubt again. I am just going to do things to the best of my ability. Fear grips a lot of areas of my life. I fear lack of security, I fear abandonment, I fear pain, I fear loss, I fear failure. But if God brings me to it, he will bring me through it. 1 Corinthians 3:7 says, "So then neither he who plants is anything, nor he who waters, but God who gives the increase." If I am to have a successful business then God will add the increase. I fear that because I am new and young in the industry that others will look down on me. But then again I didn't become a photographer for fame. I wanted others to see the beauty God created. I am called to put my hand to the plow and not look back. 1 Timothy says "Don't let anyone look down on you because you are young, but set an example for the believers in speech, in life, in love, in faith, and in purity." I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength. I am no longer allowing fear to have power over me. I am a confident, talented, experienced, personable photographer/videographer. And I'm here to take your photos and make videos.